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life is a ball that rolls up and down streets collecting junk. it is a lint roller. i am rolling and rolling. roll me back Lord to you. if i could, i would curl myself into a corner and shut myself in utter darkness. in the pitch black, i would bare my soul to you Jesus and ask you to take all of me. in that secret place, i would ask you to do the surgery and i would let your hands soak into my heart.

i prayed for my husband today. my prayer was that he would love you more and that he would not be hardened by the world. but rather, that grace, love, beauty and truth would continually be worked into his heart... and that he would become as a child. i prayed that all his questions about the future would be quieted with your guiding spirit. jesus, wherever he is, whatever he is doing and whoever he might be... grow him, take all of him now and forever may his heart be captured by you. that certain promises and truths would be solidified in his heart. that whatever doubts and uncertainties he may have concerning life, his past and You would slowly transform into revelation, truth and rest in You. i have yet to meet him and when i do, be the center.

swirling in my mind:
school counseling. at-risk students. case-loads. guidance. college counseling. future. low-income students. immigrants. opportunities. missed opportunities.

where to in 2007 Lord?

all I want for christmas is You.