Lately, being pressed about giving up my own standards and rights. It's wonderfully freeing because at the same time, God is revealing himself to me as a plentiful, abundant giver - as one who has perfect oversight and insight into my life. It's like he's saying, "You can trust me completely... let go of your standards and rights.."
Being a perfectionist is revealing itself in the ways I hurt and criticize people. My standards on how things should be, how people ought to behave have ended up being hurtful and dismissive. I'm prone to dismissing people if they violate a standard or principle that I strongly believe in. This isn't the gospel operating in me at all.
"Jesus, the most asymmetrical human life, was never angry when he was
violated and abused. He always loved first and loved more, and he always
will." (desiringgod article)
Saddened to see the self-serving vein of my perfectionist heart, but at the same time, hopeful that by God's grace, I will become more like Christ each day.
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