my thoughts are everywhere.

read "the marks of a spiritual leader" by john piper. i feel that i'm growing, but i feel i can commit myself to the spiritual disciplines better.

i am letting go of my analysis of the future. it seems to make little sense especially when there is a great God in my life. i can do everything possible to figure things out. in hindsight, i have never been able to figure things out on my own. i'm content with whatever God gives. His plans always end up being a lot better than I could ever have imagined.

i can't believe 2007 is coming to a draw. did i grow as an artist? did i grow in my love for Jesus? was this the year of "red"? when i saw red paint being washed over the walls of the church, was that also a picture of my own heart? Christ's very blood the answer to each fall, each dark moment?

yesterday was 3 year anniversary "marriage". i forgot to celebrate it.