the onion

sin - that monster that morphs and
transforms into multitudes of sin
is growing layers over fresh wounds

creativity

where has my life gone? i wonder that i haven't invested more time in living, creating and imagining.

Jesus

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dyin breath of
This love we've been workin on

http://www.kimopress.com/biograph.htm
http://www.qhpress.org/quakerpages/qwhp/soma.htm

OIL

OIL was such a blessing.
I felt encouraged, affirmed and refreshed.
many lessons from the past were reaffirmed.
One thing I felt called to repent over was the way I treated family.
All my life I thought I was a good sister, but I wasn't. I don't know how to be committed, loyal, consistent or loving. I suck at it.
The song "pleasing to you" really spoke to me.
This is the year of "white" and it's a year that I want to set apart for Christ -- to be holy, pure, setapart and in Christ. The song "pleasing to you" speaks to all these things.

I feel broken and contrite over how I treated family. I felt God really calling me to repent over these relationships. As I'm thinking about this, I can think back to relationships from church that i have neglected, taken for granted and left -- because I didn't want to get hurt, because I was afraid...etc.

(to be continued)

Hello 2008

Hello 2008.
wonderful even numbered year.
-the Word is as honey on my lips. It can be chewed and savored a million times over. You can listen to the same sermon over and over again and still not know enough. God is infinite...I can never know him enough
-I am your chosen one. You are disciplining me.. I want to submit to you and know you as my master.
-Transformation cannot be calculated. Things just happen. I cannot predict anymore.
-All my efforts are in vain. My perfectionism vs. God's perfectionism.
-Are alll my words seasoned with salt? A product of the thoroughness of Christ in my heart? I am learning to be led in the Spirit.
-If you are led by the Spirit, you are led into battle against sin.
-I am responsible for chewing and partaking the Word
-I must remain in you.
-I'm learning to filter through what I've learned and seen about church/God. I am relearning everything, being born again in my thoughts.
-Old skin vs. new skin. God wants me to have a new heart.
-It's not about learning many new lessons, but about learning 1 lesson really well. I'm so used to gathering new thoughts and lessons each week that I forget to savor Christ. I can get so caught up in gathering information.
-I've been humbled. I can no longer assume things about people.
-I'm learning to see people positively. I realized I have such a bitter perception of people. I do not know how to love people.
-Without love, I am a clanging cymbal
-Learning to not be condescending in my speech. As Christ is in my life, He is transforming my speech and my heart.
-Grandma? My perception of her is changing. I've grown bitter, but it is a good kind of bitterness. I must feel it before moving forward.
-Christ is alive in my life. Even yet while I was a sinner, Jesus died for me.

truth.

my new hero: soong-chan rah

i feel like he's spoken for a lot of what i've been mulling through in my mind about the church, asian-american churches, westernization...etc.

praise God.